Do you know that when someone is amputated a member is still feeling it? "Ghost member," they call him. Well, my girls were little ghosts around me a couple of days ago ... On Friday I went out for dinner for the first time without my daughters. It was an anniversary dinner at my workplace, and for the first time I decided to leave without them.
It is true that once he had gone to a couple of work meals without the kids, but for a fairly limited time (come on, almost leaving with dessert in his mouth ...).
So after almost four years, I lacked the little "appendages" around, a strange feeling that reminds me of if we never had children. I immediately remembered a friend who a few years ago traveled with me to Mallorca and had that unconscious urge to look around to see where the children were.
He told me then, and I thought, "How strange." Effectively, It's weird to go out without them when you've been doing it for years, not just to go shopping or to work, or the tasks we usually do without them when they grow, but in a different situation, leisure.
I still remember the first time I went out without my oldest daughter. It was about three months since I was born and I decided to go an hour (I remember that I set that limit) to an exhibition, very close to home. She slept and if I took her I would be more uncomfortable.
How strange I felt! Only three months with her (more, counting the pregnancy) and "I was missing", like those "ghost members" who are still noticing, which we continue to look for. Maybe inside of me "I wanted" that she had missed me too. But he was still sleeping ...
On Friday, I was surprised several times looking in the rearview mirror at their seats, checking the phone and with a tremendous desire to call to find out how they were, although when I left home they had practically already gone to bed. I was missing something.
Although I also have to say that I had a great time and that I knew they were sleeping peacefully and didn't need me. I went back a few years ago, without looking at the clock, dancing and enjoying the night, I had a great time certainly and I think this exit felt great for me.
Because the next day I really wanted to see them and tell them everything I had done, show them photos, give them the flower I took for them ... During the night, without my daughters I was missing somethingnormal If they fill every corner of our existence in abundance ... an indelible and delicious trace that will never be erased.
